Just Fuck It

First things first: I hope that wherever this post finds you, you are alone (or with your significant other or family in your home), and that you are safe, and that you are healthy.  I can't remember a time like this; maybe it was my youth, but I don't remember such wide-sweeping panic happening after 9/11.

Businesses are shut down, bars and restaurants are closed, children are unable to go to school.  The state I'm in, Idaho, declared a "stay at home" decree, as have many others.  My field of construction is listed as "essential personnel," because if there's one thing Boise needs during a pandemic, it's more apartment complexes.  Thankfully, the Durfette works from home full time, and my job has been understanding with me cutting hours to take care of the Durfling while she works.  Even then, I'm not sure how much longer that situation will be tenable; because of the medications I take for my Crohn's disease, I'm considered immunocompromised, which means every time I leave the house I'm potentially putting my family at risk.  Despite all this, I readily acknowledge that we have it better than a lot of folk right now; I'm tremendously grateful to my wife for encouraging me to stay home, but that's an easier decision for us to make because of her work situation.

It feels like as recently as last week I'd want to post something about staying positive, about feeling better in spite of the world literally fast-tracking it to hell.  But that's not where I'm at.  With my family, I have been trying my best to remain positive and press on, but when I'm alone in my car I let myself embrace the squalid, shitty state of things through music.  It's not uplifting, but I've been craving music that mirrors the world we're living in.  So here's some stuff I've been listening to.  Some are old favorites I've recently turned to, others I've only discovered in the past few weeks (thanks, as always, NCS!).  I hope it can help you get through this, and I hope that next time I think of something I want to post, the world is in a much better place.  If you're at all able, maybe throw some money to these or any other bands you dig; without the ability to tour, I'm sure they're hurting.

Be well.


Dragged Into Sunlight - Widowmaker and Hatred for Mankind



None - Life Has Gone on Long Enough



Aeonian Sorrow - A Life Without



ColdWorld - Melancholie



Emma Ruth Rundle - Assorted



Aversio Humanitatis - Longing for the Untold



Primitive Man - Scorn



Aerial Ruin - Assorted



Windhand - Soma




- Durf